i luv my grandpa..

at this moment, my grandpa is admitted to the hospital.. i went to visit him last 2 days.. as far as i remember, this is the first time he is admitted.. seeing him makes me feel so sad.. even i'm not that close to him as compared to my other grandpa, i luv him so much.. i really hope that he'll recover soon.. looking at his condition it reminds me about what had happened nearly a year ago.. i lost my beloved 'mak su' last year.. i can still remember, it was 16th March, a day b4 my fren's birthday.. i never thought that she will leave us all so soon.. this is bcoz, exactly a week b4 she died, i met her at my grandparents' house.. at that time she was fine waiting for her first delivery.. may b Allah loves her more.. what i can do now is to pray for her.. all the things that i've done with her will never fade from my memory..

holiday...

what a boring day.. this always happen to me.. i'm not a person who likes to go out on weekends as i prefer to stay at home.. that's the main reason why my housemates called me as 'orang rumah'.. they always make fun of me as they said that if we ask the house who it likes the most, the answer will definitely be me.. what to do? i don't like to go out unless i've something to do outside.. and the most important thing is that i'm happy with what i'm doing even the feeling of boringness seems to kill me sometimes.. i woke up early today, settled myself & went to the 'pasar' with a friend to look for fresh meat to cook.. even there are 8 people in this house including me, when one person goes out..the whole house seems lonely.. so, imagine what happens when 3 people are not in?? that's how i feel today.. i'm still in the process of searcing for what to do.. actually, i do have things to be completed.. but, i don't have the mood yet to do all of them.. i've become quite lazy this semester.. that makes me afraid that i couldn't get good result for this semester.. remember farihah, feeling afraid all the time will not guarantee a success.. what important is to work for it.. don't wait until you regret it once again as it will be too late dear..

no camping???

im not sure whether i should b happy or the other way around.. the camping that i should attend tomorrow has been cancelled.. why? the answer is not with me.. so, this night i have to start thinking on what to do for the next 3 days.. i don't know why i should b frustrated with this situation eventhough im not that interested to attend this camping.. may b bcoz i feel like someone has ruined everything that i've planned for this weekend.. its not easy to reschedule everything.. but, it's ok.. at least i get the opportunity to rest for awhile.. there is no test & assignment to submit for next week after weeks struggling with books and stuffs.. besides, i've finished my informative speech which has been a burden to me for the last week as i was too busy with my assignment.. so, this is the best time to do whateva that i wish for the past __ ( i don't remember how many weeks or a month may b ) ~bz woman, hehehe...

1st time..

this is the 1st time im writing in my very own blog.. if b4 i prefer to read someone else's blog, now i get the opportunity to write my own life story..b4 that i would like to thank my beloved housemate who has somehow influenced me to be apart of this 'virtual story-telling' field..i have never ever imagined that i'll do this one day..but today i made it..don't ask why bcoz i don't have the answer..may b as i go on i'll meet the true reason behind what i'm doing now.. i guess that's all i can write for now, till meet again, bye...