happy, happy day...

today is 2nd of October which means my birthday.. seriously, i will never forget this 21st birthday as i got the opportunity to celebrate it with my dear housemates.. they have been working hard in making my day as beautuful as it has been.. they make a surprise birthday party for me (even i knew bout it) with pizzas and cake.. not to forget, i received gifts from them which has not been named yet.. luv you all... don't forget to celebrate my 22nd birthday which will be coming in a year time..hahahahaha

past is history

everything has come to an end.

today i get to know something that i've been searching for quite some time. and the most important part is that, i've made a decision & nothing can change it for now.. i do not know whether this is what i wish for or i'm just being cruel to my own self....i just do not know & perhaps it's better not to think about it now..please farihah, you have lots more to think about.. cheer up urself & live ur life to the fullest... this is what happened when i've nothing to work on.. you have to keep urself busy farihah, then only you'll think normally..

*farihah bile x bape nak normal, hahaha

another celebration..

this 'project' has been postponed for nearly a month bcoz of many 'technical' problems that occured..even so, last nite we managed to make this 'project' a reality..actually, the 'project' that i have been mentioning here is the birthday celebration for four of my housemates..with the strong collaboration with the other committee members we have successfully surprised the four of them with dinner treat, birthday cake as well as cute gifts...alhamdulillah, our hard work did pay off esp when seeing them with such a beautiful smiles on their cute faces...to the four of you: happy belated birthday, i'll always pray that we will all together be happy all the time n successful in our study..go go 101 gurlzzz.....

i don't ask much..

is it hard to respect someone else when they deserve it?? may b for some it is.. lately, i always come across people who teach me the ups and downs in life.. thank you to all, even it hurts so much.. when we are doing something which is better known as collaboration, please be considerate.. do think of others esp what they feel when we do this n that.. n please always bear in mind that you are working with human being, not a doll or what eva you may think it is.. my advice is, don't ask after you have done damage, do so before you make any move... then only people will respect you as you wish.. if not, don't ever dream of it.... when you are dealing with people, remember to handle them with care...

~ nota utk renungan b'sama

new start

8.30 tomorrow i will have my first class for this semester.. i can't wait for that moment as i will get the opportunity to meet my long time not see classmates and new lecturers.. i really hope that there is no class that will be cancelled for tomorrow as what happened in the previous semesters.. this is bcoz it is really frustrating when you have prepare yourself physically n mentally to start the new semester but there is no lecturer coming in after hours of waiting.. i really hate that bcoz it will somehow disturb my mood to learn n perform well as at that moment of time the excitement of beginning new start is still high.. as first impression, first class is really important.. by the way, i should not think negatively right now.. what is important is to start this brand new semester with new vision, dream n anticipation.. gud luck friends!!!

counting days..

right now i am counting days to go back to Shah Alam n start the new semester.. new semester means new timetable, new courses n new assessment.. new classmates??? i don't think so as counselling students have to register themselves in A class.. it is a must since last semester.. i don't have any problems as for me i am really comfortable to stay with all of them in the same class again even i admit at first i had a problem in adjusting my self in the new environment.. tougher courses are waiting for me this semester n i really hope that i will get to manage it efficiently without any trouble.. i really miss the moment i get ready and walk with my housemates to the class.. there are lots and lots of thing that we will discuss along the journey.. not gossiping okey!! new semester, new dreams, new target & a brand new spirit..

can't wait !!!!

when something is gone then only we know how precious it is in our life.. that is what happening right now.. i can't wait to meet my friends and start the class for the forth semester.. i miss all of the moments: finishing assignments, preparing presentation, cooking lunch n dinner, 'kaco orang' esp my housemates... 'bersabo' farihah, only two weeks to go... but i bet, once im there n having a great deal of works.. i'll miss all the 'bermalas-malasan' moments at home.. that's what happening all the time.. and that is me..

bosan...

i luv holidays but not semester break bcoz it is too long to bear with.. everyday is just the same for me.. after helping my mum with the household chores i will have nothing to do except for watching tv.. i am addicted with the tv's dramas.. from monday to thursday i have nearly six dramas to watch.. this is the reason why my housemates call me as a drama queen.. sometimes the dramas are not that good or interesting to be watched, but i do so bcoz i am too boring.. so, instead of doing nothing it is better for me to watch the tv.. hehehehe.. no lah.. actually, watching dramas has been my interest since my schooldays.. can you imagine, everyday as soon as i reach home i will complete all my homework.. why?? not bcoz i am 'rajin' or what.. but, bcoz i want to watch the tv.. but, never mind at least i finish up my work in the first place.. when i go back to shah alam i will not have the opportunity to watch the tv anymore.. so...... watch it as long as you can farihah!!!

worst paper ever....

today i sat for my worst paper ever,educational psychology!!! can u imagine.. getting ur final exam paper & you did not know nearly all of the answers?? that's what i've gone through just now.. seriously, i can't answer the questions!! n i've been wondering for an hour thinking of my result n cgpa... another dl?? i guess, it will never happen this semester.. mom,dad don't put any hope on me anymore. i won't get good result.. i better tell this to my parents before they shock seeing me getting c, or may be i've to repeat this paper.. i can't imagine it at all.. i've done my very best to study n struggle all the way to perform well in this paper as the marking system is 'killing'.. but then, it turned out to be like this.. now, i need to calm myself n enjoy a little bit before struggling for my very last paper, counseling.. i really need to work hard this time to make sure this nightmare will never return anymore...

final exam!!!

2 days b4 the final examination? huh, what i need to do now is to study smart n not hard.. but, it's still hard for me.. i have three papers this semester... even so, all of these papers are the killers... 3 credit hours.. that means if i don't perform well, i'll fail....... and the most interesting part is that i only have 1 day gap b4 the 2nd paper... that means now i have to study n prepare for both papers.. actually, i'm a type of person who can't concentrate on 2 important things at the same time... i really can't, but i have to.. what else to do? it's final examination!! i don't know whether i can maintain my result for this sem or not.. honestly speaking, this semester is the hardest of all... 4 courses have no final examination... what eva it is, i need to focus on my study right now n give the best that i could.. the rest i leave it to God.. Insyallah, if we put effort in doing something, we will gain the benefits afterwards.. so, work hard friends... n gud luck for the final examination!!!!

dl's dinner...

isn't interesting when all of ur best friends n you managed to go to a party together??? that's how i feel last 2 days when all of us went to the dean list's dinner.... it was not as we expected it to be.. why?? 1stly bcoz of the time which is not suitable at all... it was in the middle of the week.. can u imagine, the next day all of us have to struggle with our 3rd language final paper which worth for 20%....... it's not a small number to 'play' with... i may get b or c if i don't perform well in this test.. isn't it weird when you get low marks bcoz of attending a party specially conducted to celebrate ur previous success?? it is, right? that's what worrying me now... basically, i luv the food n the cute souvenir dedicated to us... in these two aspects, this dinner is better than the previous.. but, in other areas.... i didn't think so (not only me who say this) i really have to work hard this time in order to be 'invited' once again to the dinner.... good luck to all my friends..... who knows next sem we may break the record.. "all of us attend the dinner".... that will be the most interesting part of all.... amin....

sedih nyer..

it's hard for me to get sick.. but, once i got it... it makes me unhappy, not energetic & the most important part is that i can't 'kaco' my housemates anymore... instead, they make fun of me..huhuhu.... i really hope that it won't be for long.. i can't take it anymore, i can't concentrate on my workzzz & the best part is next week will be the most hectic week ever... furthermore, i've arabic speech which i can't think of right now, seriously!! Ya Allah, give me the strenght to deal with this test.. Insyaallah, i do have the believe that i'll recover soon... anyway, friends do pray for me hah.... i don't have anything more to write on i guess...oh, before i forget, this morning i went for 'insak' test for kpm's scholarship.. i really hope that i'll pass this stage & 'invited' for the interview... never mind, 'kalo ade rezki, adalah...' just wait & see!

cruelty..

i can't imagine how cruel i was yesterday.. actually, yesterday was my best friend's bday.. and all of my housemates together with me pretended as if we forgot about her bday.. none of us wish her 'hapy bday'.. i can still remember she came to me & said 'farihah, hari ni hari jadi aku'.. and i replied, 'a'ah, happy bday'... that's it... i was somehow 'clueless' when she told me that bcoz i do remember it was her bday & i'm just pretending....... at night, when she went out, all of us prepared a small party for her.. as soon as she arrived home, all of the lights were off as if no one was at home.. she entered the house and said 'wei korang kluar la..nape ni ak takut' ( something like this la..) after a while, all of us went out... we show her a slide show that we managed to prepare for her ... then, we sang happy bday song, ate cake and icecream together... what a lovely party it was.. what makes me touched was when she cried and said that 'aku sedih korang tak wish aku pun, aku asyik cakap yg ari ni ari yg m'bosankn jer...rupe nyer x...' don't cry my sweetheart, none of us forget your big day...remember, we all love each other very much...luv u nad....

balik 'kg'....

today my mom & sister will come to my place.. we plan to go to my grandparents' house in sg. buloh... so, before that i've to finish some of important task & assignments.. go go farihah!!

penat nyer...

today i feel so tired.. i had bpkp from early morning until 4.30pm.. even so, i'm grateful bcoz the LDKs are really interesting as compared to previous semesters.. the best part was that all of the 101 residence together with a stranger managed to enter the same group.. i got 4 new friends today.. but, most of the time the friendship will end as soon as we step out from the class.. i really hope that it won't happen this time coz i enjoy very much to have friends like them.. they are sporting & supportive as well.. i learned a lot of new things today... thanx to miss mel n miss azi who have been the most motivating facilitators ever... i gained a lot of benefit from what both of you have told us throughout the sessions...another bpkp next sem?? huh..it's okay as long as it is as interesting as today's...hehehehe..my eyes can't be opened anymore..i think i better get to sleep now...permisi dulu ya....

congratulation dear !!!

as soon as i know when the spm result is going to be out, my life has been ******* (as if i'm the 1 taking the exam).. it's bcoz my 1 & only sister is going to get her result.. i don't know why, but everytime when it comes to her, i'll always worried.. deep in my heart i know & believe that she will never let my parents & i dissappoint.. when i was in my counselling class this morning, one of my friends show a message from his cousin telling her that he managed to get 8 A's.. from that moment on i started to think about my sister's result.. as the class end, i received a message from my dad telling that my sister got 8 A's.. alhamdulillah, even she did not get a result as i expected her to, i'm still happy for her.. never mind, i know that you have work very hard for that.. what's important now is to get a seat in the university hehehe... anyway, i'll always pray that you will get what you have been dream of all of this while.. congrats dear..

surprise party!

last night was an unforgetable nite of all.. together with my housemates i planned to make a surprise bday party for another 2 of my housemates whose bday are on this month.. the party turned out as what we expected.. both of my friends were really surprised eventhough we did accidentally talk about the party infront of them before.. it was a tough day as it was not easy for us to hide the bday cake & all the food from the 2 of them.. & the funniest part was when i have to keep them in a room while the others were busy preparing the surprise.. it was not easy as i've to make up a 'story' to keep them in.. i don't think that i'm a good actress, but they seem to believe everything that i told them as they were not aware of what's going on outside.. anyway, to anis: happy belated bday & to nad: an advance happy bday to u.. hope both of u will always remember the sweetest moment that we had together..

huh..

at last internet connection at 101 residence works as usual.. there are many things that happened during this 'miserable' period (when the internet is not working) but, i can't recall everything.. one of the most memorable 'event' was anis's bday.. my housemates and i made a plan to give her a surprise present.. however, it turned the other way around as she was the one who surprised us by not being surprised with the present that we gave her.. never mind, may b she was not aware that the present that we put under her pillow was her bday gift.. i can still remember how 'sad' i was that day as she ignored the present as if it was not there.. but, our plan to make that day as the most beautiful day for her has been a success... and i would like to take this opportunity to thank mr. sheldon lojiu who has been the sponsor for our mini party.. thanx shel and don't forget that there are another 7 people in our house who are waiting for their bday.. huhuhu..

an 'incident'??

an 'incident' occured today.. don't worry no one died.. only 1 person being hurt, deeply in her heart.. i don't wish to state more about the so called 'incident'.. what i wish to highlight here is that b careful with what u say.. sometimes ur intention is to make people laugh but u don't realize that there is someone who cries bcoz of that (why do i sound so dramatic??) if we think something is good, don't expect others to have the same opinion as us bcoz we are not the same.. always think of other people and how they feel bcoz of our action!!!

2 classes only??

i only have 2 classes for today..the 2nd class was the oral comm subject.. as i've finished my informative speech last week, today my job was to listen to other people's speeches.. it was a great thing to do.. i don't have to face the 'adrenalin rush' situation anymore.. same as last week, 10 people managed to finish their speeches today.. but, they are still many others who have not finished yet.. good luck for you guys.. 2 of my housemates did the speech today n 1 of them received compliment from our lecturer saying that she can apply for 'pengacara nona' as she has the voice.. as soon as i reached my home, 1 of my housemates told me that the name list for those who get to attend the 'ujian insak' for kpm's scholarship has coming out.. alhamdulillah, all of my housemates who apply for the scholarship including me are going for the '1st stage test'.. i really hope that i'll get the scholarship bcoz i've been waiting for it so long.. n b4 this i've missed the kptm's scholarship in which 3 of my friends did manage to get it.. never mind, may b it's not my 'rezeki' yet.. who knows this time all of my housemates who apply for the scholarship will get it.. i'll always pray for that.. it's our dream.. Insyaallah guys, we'll make it!!!

the one n only..

she is 3 years younger than me.. i luv her n i know she does the same.. she enters my life when i was three years old.. at that time, i don't know how important she will be in my life.. she is the only person that i can tell everything to.. everything? not exactly, but nearly whole of my life.. when i've problems she always be the first person that i'll search for.. but, most of the time she is not there.. it's hard for me to contact/meet her b4.. but, lately i get the opportunity to do so.. nearly everytime i wish to talk to her she will be there waiting for me.. i'm happy with this situation.. but, i'm not sure whether she can do that for long.. may b around July she will go far from me.. no assurance for that, who knows she will be coming here.. that will be the greatest news of all.. may b bcoz she is the 1 n only that i have, i always wanted to tell her everything that happens in my life.. no matter whether it is a good news or not.. she is the one i love n fight with.. every time when she asks something from me, it's hard to say no.. all bcoz i luv her so much.. i hope you know that i'm talking bout you.. n i want you to know that you are one of the important people in my life.. i need you to help me with the huge responsibility waiting for us.. Bear in mind, alone we can do so little, together we can do so much.. if you are the only 'best friend' that i've, we are the only hope that our parents have... remember that dear..

i luv my grandpa..

at this moment, my grandpa is admitted to the hospital.. i went to visit him last 2 days.. as far as i remember, this is the first time he is admitted.. seeing him makes me feel so sad.. even i'm not that close to him as compared to my other grandpa, i luv him so much.. i really hope that he'll recover soon.. looking at his condition it reminds me about what had happened nearly a year ago.. i lost my beloved 'mak su' last year.. i can still remember, it was 16th March, a day b4 my fren's birthday.. i never thought that she will leave us all so soon.. this is bcoz, exactly a week b4 she died, i met her at my grandparents' house.. at that time she was fine waiting for her first delivery.. may b Allah loves her more.. what i can do now is to pray for her.. all the things that i've done with her will never fade from my memory..

holiday...

what a boring day.. this always happen to me.. i'm not a person who likes to go out on weekends as i prefer to stay at home.. that's the main reason why my housemates called me as 'orang rumah'.. they always make fun of me as they said that if we ask the house who it likes the most, the answer will definitely be me.. what to do? i don't like to go out unless i've something to do outside.. and the most important thing is that i'm happy with what i'm doing even the feeling of boringness seems to kill me sometimes.. i woke up early today, settled myself & went to the 'pasar' with a friend to look for fresh meat to cook.. even there are 8 people in this house including me, when one person goes out..the whole house seems lonely.. so, imagine what happens when 3 people are not in?? that's how i feel today.. i'm still in the process of searcing for what to do.. actually, i do have things to be completed.. but, i don't have the mood yet to do all of them.. i've become quite lazy this semester.. that makes me afraid that i couldn't get good result for this semester.. remember farihah, feeling afraid all the time will not guarantee a success.. what important is to work for it.. don't wait until you regret it once again as it will be too late dear..

no camping???

im not sure whether i should b happy or the other way around.. the camping that i should attend tomorrow has been cancelled.. why? the answer is not with me.. so, this night i have to start thinking on what to do for the next 3 days.. i don't know why i should b frustrated with this situation eventhough im not that interested to attend this camping.. may b bcoz i feel like someone has ruined everything that i've planned for this weekend.. its not easy to reschedule everything.. but, it's ok.. at least i get the opportunity to rest for awhile.. there is no test & assignment to submit for next week after weeks struggling with books and stuffs.. besides, i've finished my informative speech which has been a burden to me for the last week as i was too busy with my assignment.. so, this is the best time to do whateva that i wish for the past __ ( i don't remember how many weeks or a month may b ) ~bz woman, hehehe...

1st time..

this is the 1st time im writing in my very own blog.. if b4 i prefer to read someone else's blog, now i get the opportunity to write my own life story..b4 that i would like to thank my beloved housemate who has somehow influenced me to be apart of this 'virtual story-telling' field..i have never ever imagined that i'll do this one day..but today i made it..don't ask why bcoz i don't have the answer..may b as i go on i'll meet the true reason behind what i'm doing now.. i guess that's all i can write for now, till meet again, bye...